Heartbreak Hurts

Sometimes, you just have a rough day... am I right? And sometimes, that rough day doesn't end and it turns into a rough week. This is just what happened to me this week.

Many of you know a lot about me, many of you don't, but one thing that lies deep in my heart is love for my family in Honduras, and it always will. I am forever changed by the love that the Lord demonstrates to me and to these once broken children in HN who are being made whole by a God who has a love for them that will NEVER fail. The things I witness and hear about in Honduras are so very different than the things I experience here, in the comfort of this town, this house, this life. But why do I allow my life here to be comfortable?

If I think about my day today, have I shared the love of Christ with someone? Have I spoken any truth of God's Word and Being into anyone's life? Have I let anyone see something different in me that makes them wonder where it came from?

In Ephesians 5, Paul says, "Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Therefore, do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is." What if I died right now- did I use my time wisely? Did I act wisely in the will of the Lord on my last day? What if someone dies who hasn't heard the gospel? How many times have I just let people who don't know Jesus pass by without sharing the truths of God with them?

This week, two precious little lambs from our children's home in Honduras have had a tough week.** Their mother was killed a few days ago... I long to comfort their shattered hearts, but must entrust them into the hands of the ultimate Comforter. Heartbroken for them, I sit here wondering, did she know the love of Christ in her heart?

When you ask the Father to break your heart for what breaks yours, he surely will break it. Thankful for the way He breaks my heart for his people, even if I have to go through a rough week to realize what He is trying to tell me. He says: don't doubt my love for you. Don't settle. Don't ignore opportunity. Don't sit their in comfort. Love my people as I have loved you. Be radical in faith. Go to the nations.

GO.

** I ask for prayers for these two Marvin and Marjeli, needing love and comfort and understanding today.

 

 

 

Complicado

I think my friend Amanda says it right when she says life in Honduras can be complicado. Complicated. I can't tell you how many times I have used the phrase 'it's complicated.' Seriously though, is anything in my life really that complicated? I am reminded of that right now, as a child I love so dearly is being searched for by others who love her too. While we don't know where she is and all we can do is pray. While I think of her beautiful smile and her sassy little personality. While I think of how I felt before I met her, how I dreamed of her, and how that dream was fulfilled the day I met her**. The way that the Lord worked on my heart through this sweet child is wonderful and mysterious to me. But I will pray fervently for her in this moment, that the Lord would bring her peace, comfort and love where ever she is, and that He would guide our hands and feet to find her.

Here is the post about her. http://hondurasamanda.blogspot.com/2013/02/searching-for-scarlett.html
And here are some pictures:

** I had a dream the month before I went to Honduras and met Scarlett. The dream went as follows: "I arrived at the children's home and Scarlett was crying. No one could calm her and although I hadn't met her before, she reached for me. I soothed her and she fell asleep in my arms." Basically, this dream was fulfilled through God's mighty hands and when I arrived at the children's home a month later, I met Scarlett crying, I held her and rocked her, and she fell asleep in my arms.